The "bell" is ringing and it says that the class is dismiss.
“Class dismissed”, said by Ms. Locsin.
I stared at her and ask myself “is this Ma’am Josie?” together with the noise of my classmate, Becky is shouting, my lazy best friend.
“Bea, let’s go. I don’t want to be late on my date,” she said. Then I looked again on Ms. Locsin face, waiting for some reaction.
“Shocks”, Becky said silently as she saw Ms. Locsin turn her head on our direction. I smiled. “This is it”, I said to myself.
But seconds later, their’s no such word comes out. Sometimes, there are times that we need to bring handkerchief and prepared our selves if ma’am Josie will give us advice. She doesn’t want for all of us to engage in any relationship at our early age.
She says, “you are still young and there are many things much important than that. Don’t think that I made a decision for you, but ….”
One simple knock was interrupting our attention. We turn our eyes on the door and Dr. Raffy, the tall and handsome resident doctor in our school.
Ma’am Josie, stand up and left the room together with Dr. Raffy as if we are not there.
“Let’s go”, I whispered to Becky. She smiled and then we left the room.
Ma’am Josie is my idol, she is beautiful and smart. She is in the high standard of living, strict but also kind person. Sometimes, we are joking but there’s also a limitation. Never mention about having boyfriends because she will never stop advising you.
She is twenty five years of age, and eight year is our gap. For me, Ma’am Josie is a picture of a young one. Even though she is deep and there’s always angriness in her speaking.
She is really kind; I think that while I am walking to go home. When I’m reviewing my lessons, Ma’am Josie is still on my mind. I noticed that she is more different from these past few days. She’s like frighten, lonely and it seems that she had a great problem deep within. I want to help, like what she did to me, three months ago.
August 19, in
“Bea, let’s go, let’s swim,” the bus arrived at the resort. We are not yet arranging our things but Beck was so excited to swim.
They are all happy and I silently go far a little bit from them. I sat on the seashore.
“The sunset is beautiful, right?” Ma’am Josie uttered from my back. She sat in my side. Then there silence between of us. I don’t want to talk, because I don’t want her to see me crying so I changed my position.
“But you know, sunrise is much beautiful”, she continuously speaking. Maybe she means that there is a hope in every challenge.
And my shameless disappear. I can’t control my tears from fallen.
“Talk to me”, she said “forget that I am your teacher now.”
“Ma’am …” this is the single word I spoken. She embraced me.
And while I’m crying I tell her my problems. I tell that my boyfriend, Ruben passed away because of car accident. She gave me a chance to outspoken my feelings.
“Did you think, Bea….” That death doesn’t mean to lose hope”, I am shock to what she said. And she looked at my eyes.
“Things are happened. Ruben is passed away and yours tears makes him uncomfortable because he saw you crying.
We are still on that position, when I smiled and feel some happiness because there’s no such pain in my heart. Right! There’s a hope.
I stood up and shout, “There’s a hope!” while we are staring at the sunset I turn my eyes to Ms. Locsin face. I notice that there’s a smile in her lips and she is happy.
A month later, Ma’am Josie did not come to our class. They said that she is in the hospital in
One day, some teacher was talking about Ma’am Josie and I heard that she passed away after six months of surviving in her illness. On the past three months up to that day, she never told us about her condition.
I stopped walking when I saw that there is a man in Ma’am Josie’s room. I silently enter the room and I see Dr. Raffy who is facing the window and staring at the sunset.
“The sunset is beautiful, right?” then he look at me.
“But sunrise is much beautiful, isn’t it?” I replied and smiled at him. In my heart, I know Ma’am Josie want me to use as a way to give a hope to Dr. Raffy.
“because, it gives another hope”, he softly said. I stepped forward to his placed and embraced him. I let him cry as what Ma’am Josie did to me.
“Doc, did you know that Ma’am Josie will not be happy if she will see you crying.”
Then after a few minutes, DR. Raffy stop crying and have some smile in his lips.
WE left the room happily and we look together at the sunset.
“Tomorrow… I will watch the sunrise, and I know that he will also do.”
